The Lives of 2 beautiful souls + 1 more..*love*

Ok..

Iamtypinginthedarkcosmydaughterissupercrankyandhasjustfallenasleep
andIdonotwanttowakeherup..

*sigh*

This is, by far, the worst night..

As mentioned on twitter, I expressed quite a fair amount of b.milk..

When both boobies combined.. :)

I stored the milk in the new storage bags I purchased..I didn't quite know how to use these new bags(the brand I bought before was unavailable so I bought bags from another brand) so I ended up, spilling some milk.. :S

Anyway, soon after, Auni started crying for milk so I fed her..Not once, not twice but 3 times from the right one!!! And twice on the left one..Is she super thirsty or whatttt!?!!

I am so thankful my body was able to quickly replenish the supply of milk..I was fearful that both boobies were dry as I just finished expressing but thankfully, I could see milk from the sides of her mouth whilst she was having her milk..Hehe..

These past few days have been quite an eye-opener for me..

Why??

I introduced Auni to the bottle..

She HATES it..

ARGHHHHH!!

I used different teats: silicone(A.V.E.N.T) , latex (N.U.K)..

She adamantly refused the bottle..It takes 10 mins (on a good day) for her to battle with the teat and finally drink..On a bad day, she will wail and spit out all the milk which I worked so hard to express..I had a hard time, expressing my b.milk till recently..On average, I could only express 80 ml, max, a day!! So to see her spit out the milk makes my heart(and boobies) ache..*sobs*

I turned to the net and found out that I used the max speed to express, which I shouldn't, cos the cycles are too fast..So now, I am using low-medium speed and Alhamdulillah, I managed to express 200 ml per day..Just now was exceptional!! 160+ ml at one time!!! Weeee!! I had a mild fever and severe engorgement, I tell you!! Rushed home from inlaws(Didnt express there cos I didn't bring my pump) and immediately started to express..Hahaha!!!!

Why the sudden introduction to bottle-feeding?

Its cos I am going back to work soon(BOO!!) and I need to get her adjusted to feeding from a bottle..

I asked a friend how much her baby drinks per feed as he is bottle-fed..She said 4 oz..Wooahh! I do not know how much Auni drinks per feed cos no way I can measure when she is being b.fed!!

So the first time I fed her 60 ml, she drank all..The next time, I increased it to 80 ml, she barely managed to drink all..The third try, I increased it to 100 ml which is about 3.5 oz..Sadly, she only drank up to 80 ml(I nearly cried when I had to throw away the remaining milk)..Today, I tried to feed her 100 ml but she only drank till 70 ml..My Mil told me to throw away the remaining milk..No wayyy!!! Its my precious milk!!! So I quickly fed Auni with the remaining milk when she woke up from her nap..

So now I am quite worried..I look at Auni and I wonder if I am feeding her well..I can't tell cos she mostly drinks directly from me.. :(

Look at those chunky thighs..

Look at that chunky arm..

Look at that chubby cheek..

I am feeding her well, right?

I pray that I am..

I will be working hard the next few days to get her used to drinking from the bottle..Its war, I tell ya..But I do not have a choice.. :(

Darling Auni, Ummi wants the best for you, sweetie..Its already hard enough for me when I am always being asked why I refuse to feed you formula milk..Those people say I am making your caregivers' lives hard cos when I start work, its better for them to feed you with formula..I think it is just for convenience's sake..They do not care about your nutrition, do they? Breastmilk is always best, no matter what..I will strive to feed you with breastmilk as long as I can, irregardless of what those people say..

Goodness..Its midnight..

One last pic..

Taken at the airport when sending Wan off for her Umrah..

Dearest Wan/Mummy, how Auni and I miss you so... :'(