The Lives of 2 beautiful souls + 1 more..*love*

Before I was a Mum,
I never tripped over toys
or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not
my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mum,
I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind
and my thoughts.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mum,
I never held down a screaming child
so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night
watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mum,
I never held a sleeping baby just because
I didn't want to put her down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces
when I couldn't stop the hurt.
I never knew that something so small
could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mum.

Before I was a Mum,
I didn't know the feeling of
having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel
to feed a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond
between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small
could make me feel so important and happy.

Before I was a Mum,
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night
every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay.

Before I was a Mum,
I never used to lie in bed awake worrying about where my 18+ child was
Always waiting to hear the key in the door when they came home at some ungodly hour
And that they still puke
That the puke is not from being overfed
But because they over indulged
One always thinks that when they are growing up
They will still be your little angel

Before I was a Mum,
I used to think that when kids grow up
They will look after you
That when they get married
You don't have to worry about them
But then they start having children and you worry about them

Before I was a Mum,
I didn't think I would have to be a Marriage Counselor
You think that they are all grown up
That they can deal with their own stuff
But as a Mum you still feel their pain
The same pain as when they first had that immunisation shot

Before I was a Mum,
I thought that my kids would have learnt at school about banking and finances.
But when you become a Mum you become the banker and the financier
Mums will always give, or lend, that extra twenty bucks.

Before I was a Mum,
My Mum told me that your children are only on loan to you that they are there for you
To nurture and look after
To love and be loved back
Just as I love my Mum
And I know that she loves me back
I had never known the warmth,
the joy,
the love,
the heartache,
the wonderment
or the satisfaction of being a Mum.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much,
before I was a Mum

And before I was a Grandma, I didn't know that all those "Mum" feelings more than doubled when you see that little bundle being held by "your baby"...

To all mothers and grandmas..

More especially to my beloved mummy and mak..

I love you two sooo much!

:*

Btw, my mummy said, 'the words in red really express my feelings.... tremendously.'

*tearing*