The Lives of 2 beautiful souls + 1 more..*love*

I have been writing an entry in my mind for a while now..

Its time to put it on the blog..

And trust me, this will be a looong entry..

But I really need to get it all out of my chest/mind..

I made lots of resolutions this year..

One of which is to be a better wife..

Honestly, I have been neglecting DH ever since Auni was born..Whatever I do, Auni comes first..When Auni cries and he asks for me, I attend to Auni first..When we both were cuddling on the couch and Auni stirs from her sleep, I will go and pat Auni back to sleep, leaving him alone..Most of the time, I get so exhausted, tending to Auni that I fail to tend to him..By the time Auni sleeps, I will be so shagged and often, I just fall asleep, completely ignoring DH..

So my heart ached when DH smsed me and asked me to spend the night with him after countless failed attempts to be with him..

I looked at myself and I was ashamed..

I rarely doll up now and the main reason I wear specs is cos I am too lazy to put on my lens..Due to wearing specs, I become more lazy to put on makeup..I only beautify myself when there is a special occasion such as weddings, etc..

Often, I will just powder my face and apply some lipbalm on my lips and that's it..

Even my sisters noticed and commented that I am not like before.. :(

I am so ashamed of myself..

So after my visit to the doctor yesterday, I went to shop for a year's supply of lens..Now I have no reason not to apply or remove(I rarely do that too!) my makeup..

Then, I went for threading..Oh my! The pain..I nearly poke my eye into my brain..

When I met DH, I shook my eyebrows(I cant talk mah)..He was so clueless that he too shook his eyebrows..It was hilarious!!! Then, I croaked and told him to look at my eyebrows..Then, we both dissolved in helpless laughter.. :P

Next on looking better for DH is for me to lose more weight..Darn! Even though I have been fully breastfeeding Auni till now, I do not lose weight easily..My break and lunch time is so short that I do not eat proper meals..I will be so hungry that when I get home , I pig out..Then when DH have his dinner, often he will ask me to join him..How to lose weight?! :(

So now that DH's gotten wii fit, I am going to make it a habit to regularly exercise..Not an easy feat when juggling household chores and tending to Auni..But I will try..

I do want to be a better wife..A wife that DH is proud to have..Thus, I will do whatever's necessary..

Moving along now..

I have been hearing disturbing news lately..

Apparently, someone I knew left her baby in the care of her sister who lives on the other side of S'pore..Her baby has been there for more than a week now..

Why I find this disturbing?

Her firstborn is 12 this year and she was finally pregnant after an ectopic pregnancy and discovery and removal of ovarian cysts..
Her firstborn is a girl and her new baby is a boy..
She is in sales so in a week, she gets off days..
She lives with her parents, even though she has her own home which she sold off to buy 1 that is nearer to her parents'..

If it were me, after trying for more than a decade and finally have a baby(what more, a boy), I would definitely treasure the new baby..

Living with her parents mean that her mother is in charge of taking care of her baby and she do not have to ferry her baby around, unlike me who have to send and fetch Auni to and from her respective grandmas..

Then, what is the point of having your own place(now that it is nearer to your parents') when you are still living with your parents??!

So many people do not have the luxury of getting a place near their parents..Some even have to wait till a few more years for their houses to be ready and those houses are far away from their parents..Seriously, what is wrong with her?!

I was utterly flabbergasted when I was told of the news about her..

Gosh..

My aunts simply label her as being plain lazy..

Gosh, there are people in this world who are trying to have kids but she irresponsibly sends her baby away..

Yes, not only she is lazy..To me, she is damn irresponsible too..

I am sure her 12 year old daughter misses her baby brother..

Sadly, there are many cases like this happening around me and I am so sad about it..

That is why I am working hard..I refuse to be like her and some others that I know..

I am working hard to be a better wife for DH, a better Ummi for Auni..

To me, nothing gives me much satisfaction than to see my husband and baby happy..

My husband and baby mean the world to me..

We may not have a car..We may live frugally..

But the most importantly, we are together, bound by love and we are contented with what we have..

For that, I am thankful and blessed..

Alhamdulillah..