The Lives of 2 beautiful souls + 1 more..*love*

amiable no more..

freaking mad..full of raging hormones in my body..

I juz hate todae!!!!!!!!!!! *pppffffffttttt!!!!!!*

A. I look very docile..I look very calm..Trust me, 99% of e time, I am..but there are juz instances when I feel like exploding..

Todae, I was supposed to meet my classmates @ e library @ 2, to do our research..Do I get anythin? Yea, one journal n tats it..I was thankful tat @ least I didnt waste my time..but wat frusts me is when e one who organised e trip to e library, came late n after finding out tat its hard to get resources, threatened not to come at all..wat makes e whole thing worse is when she did turn up, she juz put her bag in e locker n went to bras basah road..

B. When class was abt to commence, we were told tat we would be having a lil tour to e new building wher e skool would be relocatin..E place is sooo ulu!!! so wat if its near e CBD? by e time, our classes end which may be 10 pm pr 9.30 pm, noone will be arnd!!! n dun get me started abt e toilets..

C. Jealousy..its an ugly feelin..I used to be a very jealous person, guardin my then bf(now fiance) fiercely..as years gone by, I've calmed down..Todae's jealousy is nt from me..its from him..I haf mentioned b4 tat I haf a male classmate..happened tat he was wit me most of e time during e library visit..e silly gal went off n one classmate was late..being wit me doesnt mean we literally walk hand in hand..it means tat he was browsin for resources juz like me..we helped each other..when I c somethin relevant to his topic, I told him..likewise for him..so when abang called me n asked abt my whereabts n wat I haf been doin,naturally I told him everythin..yup, everythin..its in my nature to be honest n not hide anythin from abang..his reactions werent tat gd, to e extend tat he hung up e phone after sayin bye n didnt even allow me to explain..haiz..I tried callin him back bt he didnt ans..I can tell he is jealous so I juz teased him by saying tat kalo jealous, maknanya sayang la tu..

As class resumed after e tour, I received a sms from him..now tat made me lose my concentration in class..I can understand ur jealousy, abang..but pls be rational..haf I ever break ur trust? When I was in my jealous phrase n fiercely guarding u, I had good reasons..girls were simply throwin themselves @ u! makes me sick to think how cheap some girls can be..up to dis day, not 1 guy ever come forward or wat more to throw himself @ me! U r my only one for almost 9 years alredy..Seriously, wat is dis..I am upset..U wantin to be alone, dun wan to talk to me..after I send u countless smses, u neva replied..then wat abt me? where do I go now? I am left alone........................ :(

D. Todae's class was to end @ 10pm so I smsed my dad, askin him whether he could fetch me..I am nt a spoilt brat nor I am demanding..my classes dun usually end @ 10pm so its reli late for me..I haf lots to carry..huge files..lots of books n my bag..n I juz had my period..so walkin home alone from e MRT to my house freaks me out..Cut e story short, I walked home..

Now after writing so much..my anger has subsided..wats left is juz emptiness..abang's asleep, I guess..even if he is awake, he dun wan to talk to me..my family knows I am in a rotten mood so dey steer away from me..good for them as they dun wan their heads to be bitten off..heh..

wats else to say..noone is here wit me,nt even e one whom I love e most..*sobs*