The Lives of 2 beautiful souls + 1 more..*love*

As Term 1 comes to an end, it has been a tradition for e kindergarten to hold a 'end of Term 1' party..all the classes(K2, K1 n nursery) are split for 2 parties @ 8-9.30 am n 9.30-11 am n so first 2 classes of nursery are combined..almost all turned up..24 of them..lil old me..n loads of goodies to distribute n packed!! *faints*

After e madness of handlin e children n packin e goody bags(tank u, auntie for helpin!), I received a phonecall..It was from my principal..Wat I heard, not onli ruined my mood..It made me tear..

I received e news tat I may be transferred to another branch of the kindergarten..I'll haf to start workin ther on 20th March..I was to teach nursery n malay language..A lot was discussed durin e conversation but I keep sayin to myself..Its not true..No way can dat be agreeable or even possible! I kept askin..Am I being instructed to go? By den, my principal alredy passed e phone to another person..Lets call him Mr C..Mr C told me tat I'm not bein instructed to..but they lack manpower in dat centre n dats y I may haf to go ther..

So I went back to my kids, feelin uncertain..I gave out e goody bags..bid farewell to them as e party lasted onli for one & half hours n brace myself for e last class of nursery to come for another party..

I told my mentor..A fellow colleague which I respected, Kak A abt e conversation n boy was she mad..soon enuf..all the teachers knew and e admin clerk too..

They kept askin me what were e exchanged words..I could remember tat I asked my principal, tat if I am to go to the new centre..who's gonna take over my place? her reply was tat a teacher from tat centre would be takin over my place..*confused* den dats nt a matter of lack of manpower..U r juz switchin us..Y?? is it necessary?!

Den I found out e truth..Amidst all e anger from every1, I learnt e teacher takin over me is e new principal's fav pet..My current principal is leaving n e one who is takin over her is from e other centre..she is bringin along her fav teacher to my centre so dats y I haf to go to the other centre..ridiculous, ryte!!

It took a while for e nursery children to get close to me as they are still young and dun like strangers..It took a while for me to settle down and I am still decorating n settin up my class..It took a while for all the children, regardless of their levels to noe me..n now I can proudly say that all the children noe my name n always greet me cheerfully..

but now.. =(

I greeted my last nursery class n e madness of packing their goody bags begin..E tot of leavin them hurts but I was saying to myself..its nt confirmed..pls..say tat its not confirmed..

@ e end of the last party, children received their goody bags and went home..n I received yet another phonecall..It was from my principal..

At e end of e conversation..I nearly weep..my heart broke into pieces..

Its confirmed..I haf no choice..so much for not being instructed to go..I tried to reason..I cant teach malay(I am born malay but I haf to admit tat I am weak in e language..I am more proficient in English than in Malay..)..the nursery kids alredy are used to me n its not good to keep changing teachers..

I got to noe more of the upcoming challenge..In e other centre, ther's onli 2 nursery classes..8 am class has 7 kids bt e 10 am class haf 15..due to lack of classrooms, they haf decided to merge e two classes and I will haf to handle 22 kids..Knowin tat its against e MOE guidelines, they say tat there will be another teacher assistin me..

22 kids..2 teachers..2 hours of nursery(10-12)..

Den dey dropped another bombshell..Mr C said tat he is considerin me to work in e office for e rest of e workin hours..office?? learnin e ropes of being a principal?? noooooo..I haf alredy mentioned tat I wan to work as a teacher..nt above tat!! one of my colleagues tried to console me by sayin tat I will move up e career ladder very fast as I alredy haf e necessary qualifications..*sobs*..but tats nt wat I wan, is it.. =(

I was contemplatin on whether to bring my camera along for todae's party..but e camera is wit dearie..how I regret it now..

I haf no picture of any of my nursery babies..Onli one vid of Ridhwan playin wit a pulley toy..dats it..

Wat made me extremely upset is tat I do not get to bid a proper farewell to all of them(for todae's party, not all the nursery children came..)..The kids do not know dat I would be leavin..I didnt tell them as it wasnt confirmed..I did not get to give anyone a final hug..a final kiss..*sobs* =(

So here I am @ home..back early as I can leave right after e party..nursing my broken heart..

Darlin children,

Teacher Azrin is sorry tat she has to leave n dat she didnt get to tell any1 of u..She is sorry tat she neva bid all of u a proper farewell..She wishes tat she could hug n kiss each one of u for e last time..but do noe dat she will tink of all of u always as she is so very fond of each n every one of u..

not a good start for e march hols..*sobs*