Saturday, April 02, 2005

ArGh!!!!!! FreaKiN MaD..AngRy..FurIouS..Name iT..i"m fEeLin aLL of DaT..

IT StaRted Last NitE..wHEn mY mUm, DaD n AziQa CaMe hOme..aLmosT mIDnIGhT..dEy WeNT tO dIS foRuM..RegARdin TeeNagErs..As i Was blOggIn, mUm apPrOAcHed ME..n AskEd mE iF i HAf PlaNS toMolOW, i SAiD YEs..dUn wAN to Go tO anY duMb FuncTioN..she SaID mAKe mYseLF fRee In e EvENinG..i SaY foR wAT? sHE sAid shE wanteD mE n My SIsTers to gO to e 2ND pArT of E foRum..RegardIn tEeNagErs AgaIn..aRGhh!!!!!!!

I iMMeDIAteLY AnSwEreD BAcK..wAt fOR i Go?? i Am nO lONgER a TeeNAgEr..When i WAS a TEeNAgEr, i AtTEnDeD aLL e SyaRAhaNs, All E ForuMs, all e COurSes tHAt ShE oRdErED me To gO..wAt elSe??!!!!! sHE sAid iTs nT jUZ abT tEEnaGErs bUt aBt dIsCipLinE..i Noe, mUm!!! i Am Soo sICK n TiReD oF u OrDErIn uS to AttEnd CouRsEs, ForUMS, SyaRAhAns.. DiS tiME u Reli pUshEd My buttOn..i'm 22 Dis YEaR n U still TiNk i aM lIke a TeeNagEr??!!! DamN fuRiOUs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! aRGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dis MorNin, i wAS ReadIn NewSpaPeR..DaD wAs aT e DiNing TabLE tOo..He talKEd to me n AziRa..askIn uS abT oUR pLAns..e FIrst tHin tat raN thRu my HeaD iS daT mUm CaNT oRdER, gO to dAD tO oRdEr uS..TrUe eNuf, Dad wAS tEllin Us oFF, sAYIn hE WAn all oF uS to GO wiT mY mUm..hE SaId iTs a DirECt oRdER fRom hIm..i wAS sEetHin wIT AngEr..wHen HE sAid iTs RegardiN TeeNAgERs so He dUn nEed To attEnd..wat e HeLL!!!!!!! wAt abt mE???? i'm StiLL a TeeN, IssIT??!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i WAS sOOOO mAD tAt i WAS AMAzIngLY cOOL..I rePLiED, DIs Is fOR teEnS ,rITe?? hE SAid Yes..I walkeD oFF..jUZ wAN hIm tO c hOW cOnTraDIctIn hIS StaTEmeNTs wEre..

i'm sOo fReakIn PissEd..iTs nT taT i Am SOo FrEe to AttEnd sUCh dUMb ForUms whIch areNt MEaNT foR me iN e FIrSt PlaCe..i HAf tOns oF aSsignMenTs To dO..I aM sOO oVeR E TEeN eRa..mUm, u R ReLi tEsTin My PAtIEnCe..4 a lOng TIME, i'Ve eNDurEd aLL Ur NoNSenSe, aLL UR ORdErs, aLL uR NAggIn..

LAsT tIme, It wAS rEgaRdIn Dis PrePArIn fOR MArrIaGe forUm..I AdamAnTly RefuSe to Go..In e ENd, azIra wHo Is jUZ 18 HAd to Go..all cOS to TeMAn hEr..I ToLD hEr i Am nT goIn..I aM nOT gEttIn MaRrIEd yEt..sHE SAid NExt tiMe, wHen i Am MArrIEd, Dun coMe ruNnin to HEr foR heLp wHEn i EnCouNTer ProbLeMs...PuhLeeESEEE..u r E LasT pErsOn in e WorLD, i Go tO foR heLp..

dIs IS reLi SeriOus..i ReLi CAnT gEt aLOng WIt my MuM..i hAtE e ParT whEn sHe Go tO mY dAd tO orDer US aRnd, wHen shE faiLed tO do So..TO mAKe mAttErs woRse, She loVE to ThReatEn mE n My SiblIngS..eVen NAs, wHEn HE refuSe to TEman hEr to A wedDin, sHE toLD hIm, i will nEva forgEt dIS..ApER SeI!!!!

i'm reLi BReaKin doWn n E oNli pErsOn tO coMfORt mE is Dearie..SomEtiMes, whEn HE HEaRS ABt all e ThINgs we R foRcEd tO dO..He wanTEd to TAlk tO mY mUm..oF cOZ,i sToppEd hiM..hE's nT RudE, He jUZ wAN to SaY hOw hE FeeLS fOR e wHoLE SceNAriO..ThEr R tImeS, I wAS reLi MenTaLLy, EmOtiONaLLy DisTurBEd..DeArIe wAS sOo swEet..He ToLd ME tat hE iS cOllEcTin moNEy As FAsT as He coUld sO tAt we cAn gEt mArrIed ASAP thUS, rElEasIn Me fRoM mY mUm's ClutcHes..

LoNG time aGo, mY mUm usEd tO SaY dIS..WhEn u r MArrIed, uR HuSbaND will tAKe CaRe oF u..i WAs sOo HApi dEn..lAtEr shE chAnged iT..SHe SAid EvEn whEn IF u R MArrIEd, EvEn IF u r 40, u still HaF to Do As i SAy..

MuM,i haF jUZ oNE thIn tO sAy..i wiLL NEvA bE a MuM LiKe u..

GoD, pLeaSe hELp mE n My SibLiNgs..REleAsE uS fRom sUCh CruElty..DaD, i'm uPsEt tAt u BliNDlY lIstEn tO mUm n nEva HEaR oUr PleAs..u NoE waT..ThRow aWaY mY wiSh Of GoiN to NZ..i dUn wAn tO go aNyMore..iF hAvIn a gOOd BEhaViOUr MEaNs tAt i haf to fOlloW All oRdERs blIndly, i'm sOrrY..i onLi liStEn tO mY HeaRt..